maybe it's true....

    
   
   
   sure i know what I want fundamentally but.... who doesn't? ....    
   
 i'm convinced by now that it's true.... under the circumstances of this 'reality".... maybe i really don't know what i want anymore....    
   
other than to feel genuinely "loved", understood, appreciated; space but not completely lonely(despite people saying,"you should be ok with being alone)....    
   
to feel "free"- like i can breathe.... to maintain peace through out the entire week....
 
i don't belong here because, though i've been fortunate to eat; I'm forever the underdog that doesn't have nor want a capitalistic mentality....