spirituality and things

    
   
   
    i want to be free from myself; free from, those worldly expectations.... the meaning in all of this? self explanatory in ways-a complete mystery in others.... but I'd like to know....    
   
   
  i want to be free from myself; the upkeep of this physical shell.... oh how, I wished i knew for certain if and how the bridge between "physical" and "spirit"  worked  
   
   
the "time", and all i could save.... what if "heaven" could be all one could ever dream? as in everlasting joy and peace? if not, something close enough please....    
   
   
because.... I'm not cut out for this life.... i'm just not....