Never had a Real Friend

Never had a real friend


My best friend never turned its back on me
My best friend helps my bad habit.
My best friend sometimes makes me bleed
Its got a bad intention because of me
I use it for reasons people tend to not see
But its leaves scars on me
My best friend is there through thick and thin depending on the pressure
Its glides across my skin im not a beautiful canvas in its eyes
But I cant hide the marks on my wrists and thighs
Its a constant reminder of all the pain I hide
Its sting from side to side helps the aching numbness subside
It helps me have control of the pain but only on the outside
This line and that line both thick and thin leave trails of red as the swelling begins
I gasp for the air trapped in my chest
Yup my best friend helps me feel better again
My razor has always been my best friend....
I dont feel so overwhelmed like I did before I turned to the razor I call since I dont have any real friends.
Its safe to say Im desperate for a friend even if they cause me more pain....