Fucking me up

The pain was real
But I wanted him still
It wasn’t physical
But a mental thing
The type of pain
I can’t explain
How it never was
What it really was
Cause
We never gave
What we should have gave
We just played
And now
It’s all fucked up
I’m giving us up
I can’t do this pain
He and I aren’t the same
Our situation ain’t evolving
We revolving
Around in circles
These hurdles
Are too high
No effort’s being applied
There’s really no development
I rather just
Dead this shit
Be done with it
But I don’t know
I don’t know how
To let him go
Many times I tried
To release this guy
Back to the streets
But the sex be
Fucking me up