MY PUNISHMENT???????

This is what old age has done.
Made me like a paraplegic war vet.
Unable to keep my dick erect.
Unable to fucking cum.
When I'm with a woman.
She for sure will cum.
All thanks to my tornado tongue.
Gliding it between her labia
Seeking out the pearl.
This is all truth that I'm telling ya.
Strokin the clit in a memorable twirl.
Wtf have i done to be physically damned like this.
I thought i was cummin, it was just fkn piss.
What i wouldn't give to achieve and maintain a hard fkn cock.
It's all a fkn dream, not gonna happen tick tock.
Time passing by, just getting older.
More health problems just occur.
What a fkn life i was cursed into.
24/7 depression nothing new.
Fk this life and all the bullshit that comes with it.
No woman will ever want me again as long as i suffer with an eternal limp dick.
I've tried prescription E.D pills
I've tried over the counter E.D pills.
Nothing fkn works.
With a woman my dick won't work.
Alone jerkin off to porn, my cock is hard till i squirt.
Wtf is fkn going on here dammit?
Wtf is up with this flacid shit when i want to get intimate?
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Where's my fkn happy ending?
Is this even a life worth living?
Almost 50 yrs of age
2 divorces.
No kids.
Can't have kids.
I'm convinced I'm cursed for all my past,present and future sins.
When dammit? When will this fkn shit just fkn stop? When will it just fkn end?
Sexual frustration at it's maximum.
I don't want to go on with just masturbation.
I'd like a woman to love and hold and have Sexual relations with.
Not with this curse hanging over my earthly body will i ever have it.
Everything is pure shit.
Fuck it.
I have to accept this shit for what it is i have and nothing more.
I'm going to my hole in the wall room i rent, watch porn to jerk off into a condom, nothing less nothing more.
Fuck my life is all i can say.
Fuck my life yesterday,tomorrow and fuck my life today.