warrior pose

My body ached from chasing  
a hyper active toddler along the beach  
I stretched myself out with yoga  
back into a body that felt almost normal  
or as normal as my body allows itself to be  
 
I went an "understanding trauma" workshop  
and felt both sad and vindicated  
sad because I still have to live the the after affects
every waking moment of my life  
vindicated because I'm on the right path  
back towards a semblence of the goddess  
I used to be  
 
I live every day feeling broken  
and I fight for the moments of peace
where anxiety doesn't scream through my ribcage  
and leave me longing for a life I can just sleep through  
to escape the way it feels to be at the mercy  
of elements I can't control  
 
So I stretch my body to the point of pain  
relearn every day how to breathe  
find my smile in flowers and sunshine  
and hold onto the knowledge  
that I will one day feel free again  
 
© Indie Adams 2022