Nightfall

At times a child's mind can associate troubles with evening or nightfall. The morning is morning and school is school, but parents arrive home from work in the evening. This is the time of drinking arguing, fighting, and for the defenseless the unmentionables. Tight piece Lady  

I lived in a house with drunkenness and domestic violence until I was 14 months old. It's my best guess as to why I feel the way I do. My sister was a newborn when we were removed from the situation and hasn't struggled as much.

You ain't no problem!  

When I was a little kid, I wanted my room pitch black at night.  My reasoning was that monsters etc couldn't see me!  That everything was equally blind.  
My littler brother was the opposite.  So of course I had to terrorize him sometimes.  Lol

Your write is poignant, and understandable, dear Ellie.  There's a lot of comfort in the calming dark.  Who knows, you may find the best of you within there.  It has a sense of peace to it.  I have faith in your hidden strength.  

Awesome write, just overcome it.  

Ha! I have a sister one year younger, and we took turns to terrorise each other.

I don't know if there's any way to change what appears to be an imprint on the brain. The dark just makes me feel hideous.

Hiya pigtails!   -So frickin cute!  

No one is hideous in the dark, my dear.  Everything is equal and actually neutral, unless we add our fears into it.  Fuck fear.  You generate the light inside you, and dark is just a bystander.

Thanks. I snapped that pic at work recently.

an enjoyable read, i keep my night light on

I try not to go put in the dark, and try to keep my mind on 100 things at once

Dear E,

The pain and fear in this write is quite apparent for me. Night time should be so soothing and yet, that’s when all the arguing would start. So unpleasant. I find it a retreat these days but memories as a child…yuck. I really appreciated this piece for illuminating fears of the dark. H🌷