But still i push on

This poem was enter in the "Break" competition


I gave you 10 years of my life
I stuck by you thru thick and thin
But I just couldn't win. Nothing I did was ever right
All you wanted was to fuss and fight.
You're telling everyone I did you wrong and how you've moved on
Joker who you trying to fool
All you did to me was be cruel
 
But still I pushed on
 
I carried the family on my back
All you did was go on the attack
You said that you loved me, at the same time belittling me. You couldn't see what you was doing to us, now we part ways cause we must.
 
But still I pushed on
 
You was emotionally, physically, & mentally abusive. You're so angry! You went from 0 to 60 in 3.2 seconds that's got to be a record. I gave you my heart, body, & soul but you was so damn cold
 
But still I pushed on
 
Your baby girl, the apple of your eyes, cries for you at night. She asks me "When is daddy coming home?" I tell her the truth daddy's not coming "Why mommy are you still mad?" No baby mommy's just done had.......
I stop mid sentence cause she's to young to understand. So to her I say when daddy is ready he'll come see you. As the days turns to weeks turn to months, the cries get softer & lower, and the questions get fewer. It tears my heart to see my kids no our kids like this
 
But still I push on
 
Your daughter's sick and you don't even give a shit! When was the last time you seen them? 5 months ago When was the last time you called them 6 weeks ago. You claim your kids are your world
Hahahaha that's laughable!
 
But still I push on
 
In my own home I was walking on eggshells
I was living in hell. I became everything you wanted while losing myself
Being a single mom is hard.  I work, cook, & clean  that's my life I'm unscarred so stop calling with that bullshit unless you're calling about the kids cause I'm Pushing On