hardman

 
sadness holds me closely
I've let go can you feel it?
I've faded into the silence
where I feel but don't speak

sinking deeper into the darkness
coming to the surface to take breath
but god I ache for you each time I do
it hurts inside me to admit it

I caress the loneliness and keen
I'm losing myself
your presence haunts me
and when you pull back a part of me fades
dear hard man am I weak to say I need you, that I feel so deeply,
for keening within me for your touch?

I touch the absence of you
and I wonder where you go
are you here awaiting me to get real, real with myself?
honest with you

I am so lost in this labyrinth of pain
where cruelty is my master
and fate my undoing