Self depression

Exiting the light. No hope tonight
Darkness and shadows Seeping slowly  
My mind shutters in agony .The pain I feel  
"Suck it up its no big deal"That's what they say.  
Heavy thoughts won't leave me tonight.  
Every memory has a monster  that claws and deeply bites.See me,Hear me,Let me speak.  
My heart is to broken  and i am to weak. Im corrupted also flawed. Why can't I fix that? Pill by prescribed pill, am I broken?  
My mind feels left still as well as unspoken. My heart shattered while untouched.  I want to live not just exist, yet i try and try its just too much, Dizyness and distortion,fogged truths are all but lies.No one hears me as my soul  crys.