Sucidal

I'm alright,
Living in a shadows at night,
Always looking, searching for the light,
Yet, feeling numb and having self fight,
Trying best to understand the life,
Still always feeling down,
Not yearning for the crown,
Just wanna get buried underground,
Everything got me in denyal,
Getting waves of emotions like a tidal,
Feeling sick getting thoughts suicidal,
I don't know,
Always in dark places, why my mind goes?
Don't know if I wanna die,
Or if I'm looking for revival,
Survival, is it what I want? Or something primal,
I don't feel control,
It's like I lost my soul,
But I'm alright,
Living in a shadows at night,
Always looking, searching for the light,
Trying, To change every wrong in a right,
Slowly turning all the commotions,
Slowly burning all the emotions,
Trying to get out from denyal,
Looking for my revival,
Praying for my survival,
Yet, getting more and more sucidal,
Trying to find what is primal,
Still, getting more and more sucidal,
But I'm alright,
Living in a shadows at night,
Always looking, searching for the light,
And trying to make things right.