An Invitation to a Stale Party

What?
Why would you ever consider me an option for something such as this?
We are just going on two weeks and rather than letting what has happened sit in our memories you want to move forward.
That’s not safe.
That’s not safe at all.
I can’t imagine this ending well.
Am I just simple minded
or stupid?
Am I moronic
   or idiotic?
Are you seeing something or feeling nothing that I’m not?
What the fuck?
We sat in that oasis and joked but you weren’t there for my breakdown.
What that my fault too?
Yes
But I didn’t feel the same confidence you gave me four months prior.
I was lost without a compass and you became my compass.
But, maybe, you never gave me a compass but simply basic directions.
I looked to you for direction and guidance but maybe you only were pointing and when I heard directions you were only saying “ehh, close enough”.
That’s on me.
I’m sorry, but I’m not ready for this.