Not alone, anymore

My eyes are blinded
By cascading tears
I can’t think nor hear
Nor do I want to
I need rest
I need surcease
From all pain, from this
The ache in my chest

I have loved and lost
Loved and lost again
I have been used
And taken and discarded
I have given
And been taken
For many meaningless ride
I am tired

I look at you my beloved
Caress your face
With my cold trembling hands
You have betrayed me
More than the rest
For I loved you best
And here you say
You never cared

You told me a moment ago
You are going away
To another love
Your pretty sanctuary
Younger, more beautiful
No but I can’t let you go
She will hurt you
With beauty’s ego

Shackled to the wall you are
Pleading with me with hopeless eyes
Mouth gagged with strong tapes
The last bed romp was fatal
Was it not…sealed your fate
As the blood flows out of you
From the cuts on your wrists
I will kiss you goodnight

The deed is done
The day has gone
Never more will I come undone
By love and desire to possess
For I have a man entombed
Forever in this heart of mine
And within the double walls
Of my silent room