I Need Something...

“I Need Something…”

…to numb my nerves
I don’t want to feel.
I need something to sever my brain
So that I don’t go insane.
All my friends are prescriptions
Pills…take your pills…
And they aren’t even fun.
I could sell them, but I don’t know anyone.    

I need something to kill myself
That is stronger than cigarettes.
I need something to calm my mind.
All my friends are prescriptions
And they do not help me go to sleep.
I know everybody has something wrong with them…
But their problems are not mine,
And I’m so scared of loneliness when I can feel.

“I just need about ten CCs of morphine. That would cure my depression like that. The alternative is me looking for heroin.”

I need something to combat loneliness.
I need something to help me find a single friend
Who is not a prescription or a phone call.
I need something to numb my heart
From its constant ache and break.
Just a little something like the old days—
Because I’m so scared of life when I can experience it
As a burden I never asked to bear.
I need something to keep me numb.

© 2022 Marten Hoyle