Surrender admit defeat

Better off alone without anyone
My heart cant take careing
I cant take my guard down
So stupid shareing
Telling me im fragile
I hear this rip audible to me alone
And then from my soul a scream
A dieing howl of regret
Why do i forget
What opening this door
Creates
the flood gates widen
And bleeding as an open wound
One on my jugular of pain
And from the yawn of insanity
And the wrappings of deaths
A thousand tiny emotional wounds
Deliver me on a silver platter
Serve me raw and i hold the service ware
A smile creases my dumb face
I hate my weakness but to be loved
I cant begin to hide what im so willing to blindly provide
All this pain all the depravity i lose touch with
The gravity of my own decisions
I can no longer  believe in anyone
Do not unlock the box of past regrets
You give ammunition
for them to use in emotional warfare
Its unfair and half cocked but alas trigger happy
They finger your emotions
And you gave in with breathless kisses
And thoughtless abandon
You know the victor of this war so just lie there
And accept your inherent defeat
You unlocked the door you allowed the enemy
Entrance to your shrine bow before your masters feet