alternative(s)

       
         
         
         
    if I had to choose between another go around of this, and "permanent rest...." I'd prefer "permanent rest...."        
         
         
    otherwise free from any vessel, yet some how conscious would be my best alternative.... if only there were a way of knowing most definite possibilities proceeding death....        
         
         
          
  my soul holds a complete lack of interest in this mundane tiring "human experience...." so many days, I'd wish I were dead....     
   
   
   
because what is the fucking point, of such a soul draining experience? none.... my ego has been said,"to hell with this bullshit...."  
         
         
          
if you or anyone you know has thoughts of suicide.... please call 1-800 bullshit hotline.... all of this messy tiring experience is complete bullshit.... bullshit.