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Two Men Break My Heart
[font=Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Grande]this my first and only
took all four of my high school years
then we broke
in more ways than one
a year and a half later
now there's this man
older but still totally amazing
we just met then he left for army
facebook talk
think about him alot
now my higschool sweetheart
just wants friendship
but 'benifiets' too
so sad and painful
but he's changed
cheerful and happy again
totally fun to be around
i'm so comfortable to him
no fear at all
though he's hurt me
it's all rushing at me
other guy friends
are proclaiming love
now it's just too much
i'm so confused
i write this
it's a poem
i'm just now confused in love
my hearts broken from it
now also being torn apart
i like the older guy who actually cares
i think
or my ex love of my life
who i know hurts me
and just wants friendship
the guy i barely know and like
wont be here for half a year
and my ex is here
now he wants to visit more
and be ok with sharing 'benifiets'
my feelings right now
scared, confused, tormented
i was raped now half a year ago
i'm not doing ok with love
to trust anyone close
scared of my decisions
can't seem to think straight
but everyone around me
thinks i'm ok when i tell them
and trust i've gone past it
my life
hate, discust, confused, in love
moving forward, feeling backwards
trying to have fun, trying to learn life
need to get a job; i hope soon
stressed from my family
always pondering about life
distraction from remembering
my past, pain, and heartbreak
feeling together and ok right now
just love
why must it be so scary
to fall back to pain i'm fit with
or move on and risk pain
trying to grow up alone
never had help
never told anyone everything
never understood
never treated right
never knew any of this
because my friends told me them all
said i should have told them
all of the things that happend
my senior year homed to a rapest
couldn't contact my friends
now people understand and care
now i see i'm not ugly
now they are coming closer
now people falling in love for me
now i'm scared of all of it
i'm not making good decisions
stressed and lost
making not so good decisions
i need to turn my life around
just thought i'd write this list
in a poem
somthing beautiful
and a reminder of myself
trying to accept and move on
in the right direction i hope[/font]
took all four of my high school years
then we broke
in more ways than one
a year and a half later
now there's this man
older but still totally amazing
we just met then he left for army
facebook talk
think about him alot
now my higschool sweetheart
just wants friendship
but 'benifiets' too
so sad and painful
but he's changed
cheerful and happy again
totally fun to be around
i'm so comfortable to him
no fear at all
though he's hurt me
it's all rushing at me
other guy friends
are proclaiming love
now it's just too much
i'm so confused
i write this
it's a poem
i'm just now confused in love
my hearts broken from it
now also being torn apart
i like the older guy who actually cares
i think
or my ex love of my life
who i know hurts me
and just wants friendship
the guy i barely know and like
wont be here for half a year
and my ex is here
now he wants to visit more
and be ok with sharing 'benifiets'
my feelings right now
scared, confused, tormented
i was raped now half a year ago
i'm not doing ok with love
to trust anyone close
scared of my decisions
can't seem to think straight
but everyone around me
thinks i'm ok when i tell them
and trust i've gone past it
my life
hate, discust, confused, in love
moving forward, feeling backwards
trying to have fun, trying to learn life
need to get a job; i hope soon
stressed from my family
always pondering about life
distraction from remembering
my past, pain, and heartbreak
feeling together and ok right now
just love
why must it be so scary
to fall back to pain i'm fit with
or move on and risk pain
trying to grow up alone
never had help
never told anyone everything
never understood
never treated right
never knew any of this
because my friends told me them all
said i should have told them
all of the things that happend
my senior year homed to a rapest
couldn't contact my friends
now people understand and care
now i see i'm not ugly
now they are coming closer
now people falling in love for me
now i'm scared of all of it
i'm not making good decisions
stressed and lost
making not so good decisions
i need to turn my life around
just thought i'd write this list
in a poem
somthing beautiful
and a reminder of myself
trying to accept and move on
in the right direction i hope[/font]
Published 21st Mar 2012
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21st Mar 2012 6:07am
if anyone actually reads this i hope you understood what i was trying to say
21st Mar 2012 11:58pm
Some poems are far better psychiatrist and confidant than any other person close can seem to be.
I am no expert on love; the relationship side that is, I do know about heartbreak though, but think it over as to what you want from a relationship, a mental list if you will. Then weigh up the options to see what seems best.
Or better still, ask the questions on the forums and make up your own mind after you've listened to DUP's ramblings!
I am no expert on love; the relationship side that is, I do know about heartbreak though, but think it over as to what you want from a relationship, a mental list if you will. Then weigh up the options to see what seems best.
Or better still, ask the questions on the forums and make up your own mind after you've listened to DUP's ramblings!
22nd Mar 2012 2:01am
your so awesome. ^-^ Thank you. I'm not one who likes to talk about it but I take advantage of the issues by putting it through my art.
22nd Mar 2012 11:40pm
Alas the old adage "You must suffer for your art"; becuase from the soiled past of great suffering grows the kernel of a great poem.
23rd Mar 2012 00:01am
23rd Mar 2012 11:28am
It sounds to me that you are very confussed as to which way to take in love and life,I recommend getting down on your knees and asking GOD for direction, and believe me he will steer you on the right path.
