Last night.

Relatively Stream of Consciousness.
Based on real events from 10/2/2012.Cataloguing life.***

How to save money?
Cute redhead across from me
She’s got weird shoes on
All furry edges like yeti fur or a Persian coat.
She’s getting off with a stead walk ,bit shy but sure of where she’s going.
My guts nauseated from hasty gulped down Ravioli
People are gonna be out together without me while I go somewhere else
Stop the guilt one of my friends mused
-Can’t chase dreams and never beens, I’m trying to tell myself.
Can’t believe the stare of my bank account.
Oh well,lie in tomorrow.
Drinking in rum,I see a guy from what could be a forever ago.
Talking to him,I think “fuck me he used to be a close friend at college
Now he barely gives a shit”
People crowded round looking up into the pub
Who I’m meant to meet? The awkwardness if I’m wrong versus the payoff if I’m right.
Bounce over ,ask and am received.


Innuendo, exposed feelings, shared selves
I am wanted and valued.
Lack of despair is a cool refresher mint
Free to not make sense and not be any lesser   a man.
Relaxed and passing from the station to the destination.
Milk the cow of excellence
Kindness of strangers.


Throw out some cheerful chatter to some 80s girls
“Don’t understand your accent”
Drawn in,come and understand.
Heres a bottle,dear stranger.
They’re off to a party and I invite myself along.No objections.
Gallivant is my middle name or should be.
All are young,pretty and cooler than me.
Pissed in the alley,
Anxiety of entering random house- Not mine,Not wanted.
They get in and find a nesting spot for the night, birdlike behaviour.
It’s sad times when I’m the social guy,the unknown wantin’ to socialize
Valentines day’s soon. Lovely kick in the balls of singledom.
Nothing more ideal to remind you what others do not feel.
Lonely without anyone to text,unlike nights before.
Can’t we park loneliness on double yellow lines,let it get towed away?
Me and Penny talk in the lights out room
See there’s other nerdy artsy ones than her, I was hung up on.
I don’t feel uncomfortable,just embraced and bold like the shadow cat.
Chivalrous, say night and walk winter roads(one of the coldest on records they say).
Street lights  buzz( you never normally notice  other than these times) an insect sound among the lonely silence of your footsteps .
Ha,look on this my sister and mother.How far from then are we?
Bedlover!