My Mental Mess

 
The story sits waiting like
a monster that needs electricity.
(Thank you Mary Shelly)
I'm irritated with myself lately
because of mental incognition.
A virus will do that to a person.  
  
In 2006 I had viral meningitis.  
It put an end to my career
in health-care & nursing.    

I was the one that brought
the medicine to the patient,
but I no longer trusted myself,
and so I made that decision.  

No one understood what
I was talking about
because they said I was "better."



But my cognitive fog lasted forever
it seems, and although I quit nursing,
In being on my own,
I still made some very bad decisions.  

c'estla la vie

My Mental Mess

I keep things in color coded files
stored in the folds of my brain.

But then there was a hurricane,
or maybe it was a typhoon,
I can't really remember.

But my art & poetry,
my principles & virtue,
and maybe even my dignity,
were all strewn like flower petals;
all dried up now, and tumbling
in a gentle fallopian breeze.