Love is fucking hell

Everything anyone has ever said about how fucked love can be was right on the fucking money.
Love is a mother fucker.
Love weakens the mind.
Love can be beautiful.
Love can be exhilarating.
Love can be many positive things.
But in my world, just as life is shit.
Love is also shit.
I despise the way true love makes me feel when true love is snatched from me and desecrated upon.
I don't wanna hurt no more.
2 marriages 2 divorces.
I know pain.
The true pain of love.
Mental anguish.
I said I'd never love again.
Low and behold i let my fucking guard down.
I allowed love to sneak in and let this bitch play with my goddamn emotions.
Twisting and tightening barbed wire around my heart.
Fuck i hate you.
I fucking hate the way you've done me.
Fucking used and discarded me like a fucking tampon.
You goddamn fucking bitch.
Let your fucking grip over my heart,mind and soul fucking go.
I know the truth.
I know the whole fucking truth goddamn you.
Fucking cunt bitch.
I gave you nothing but my endless love and affection.
And you fucking deceived me.
Why would you do that?
Why hurt me this way?
Goddamn you fucking bitch.
I have given so much of my time and money.
But none of that compares to all the goddamn love I've given you.
I loved you so goddamn much and this is the way i get treated.
Fucking toyed with.
No wonder i always feel depressed.
No wonder i feel deep down that I'll never find someone to love me truly.
I'm just here slowly wasting away.
Soon i shall be nothing.
Not even a fucking memory.
Out of sight out of peoples goddamn mind.
Non existence is what I'll become.
Good.
The fucking sooner the fucking better.
Fuck this life.
It's all because of you.
You fucking cunt rag bitch.
Thank you.
Thank you very fucking much for all you've done to me.
Just smashing my fucking heart into the goddamn floor.
All i wanted was a true love for my own.
I wanted someone to love me and all my fucking craziness.
I'm feeling convinced i shall never have this true fucking love.
That's because......LOVE IS FUCKING HELL!!!