"Odd baLL syndrome" (i DON'T fit in)

    
   
   
   
    i tend to gravitate to the "outsiders"-those who find it extremely difficult to conform and blend;    
   
   
    more or less odd balls despite being "saved by grace" or submerged in "sin"; i mean of course it all depends; but those whom i feel i can more or less relate to gives momentum to my pen....    
   
   
i DON'T fit in; something about writing it and saying it aloud is liberating.... i feel i more or less understand(or i at least try to) different walks of life and from which it stems....    
   
   
I'm in dire need of love-like the kind of love one knows they've truly been deprived of despite a "reasonable upbringing".... like "this is no ordinary love" by Sade; yess.... something real, raw, intimate....    
   
   
something that hopefully never ends.... true healing.... embracing you at your worst....like getting underneath your skin but in a pure loving kind of way