USED

I feel so fucking used.
She told me she loved me.
She said she'd never let me go.
She loved everything about me.
She especially loved the way i made love to her.
She says our 20 yr age difference is a big deal.
I tell her age is just a number.
Besides your a grown young woman at age 28.
It shouldn't matter if I'm 48 or 88.
If you love me and i love you, that's all that should matter.
I've done so much for her.
I have done for her and her children that aren't even mine.
In the one month we've known each other, I've spent over $1500 on her.
To help her.
For her kids.
For her car.
And now she tells me that we can't be together.
What?
Why?
Why do you do this now?
You told me you loved me.
You called me your baby.
I called you my baby.
Why does she do this to me?
I feel like I'm fucking going crazy.
I would've given her my everything.
I may have lusted after her when i first met her.
I so couldn't wait to taste her.
I knew if i kept it up I'd be addicted to her.
I was right.
I also fell in love with her.
Head over heels in love with her.
Now the heartache that i feel, could be my undoing.
Used and thrown away like a skeeted in condom.
I have to admit that I fucked up getting involved with this chick.
I was completely delusional about this relationship.
I should've known better than to have fallen in love.
Now I'm just damned.
I fucked up.
I've been fucking taken for a long ride.
I've just fucking been used.
Used
Used so fucking badly.