when i walk

 
 
 
   i am not one with my body; every time I get up  and move, it's like I'm drifting about....
 
 
     it doesn't completely prevent certain things that I need to do but.... it's not a feeling of "life".... it's like.... being stuck in a flightylike state....
 
 
I'm not completely numb, and there's practically a desperate need to intimately connect....