i don’t know what love is

i’m 17
merely a child
i know nothing of love
nothing of the trials and tribulations
but oh how i’ve loved many
i have a big heart
but is that what love is?
having a big heart?
falling in love 2 months in?
i struggle to believe it so
sometimes i don’t even understand things like anger
things like sadness
things like joy
so how am i to assume i understand love
my perception of it is clearly a bad one
i never had good role models when it came to love
i just had a big heart
and a brain that develops crushes too easily
are they even crushes?
sometimes i don’t even know
i’ve written of love so many times
but what is love?
does anyone know the answer?
does anyone truly know what love is?
how do you know when you’re in love?
have i ever actually been in love?
is love just some made up concept?
what truly is love
and why do i assume i know all the answers to it
why do i assume that every hand hold, and every kiss, and every prolonged hug
is love
is it love?
do people truly love me?
do i love them?
what is love?!
i’m convinced i’ll never know