Long lost ..

I think of you and my thoughts are intense .  I miss you so bad and it doesn't make sense .
"You and I" never did exist.
But you captured my heart from the first time we kissed.  
God your so sexy...when I remember your smile.
But I just haven't seen you in such a long while.
But I feel like im trapped so deeply within... and I live for the moment when ill see you again.
So many emotions,  that consume me inside  
I could fill up an ocean with the tears that I've cried.
One phone call from you and I'd be on my way.  .
And mile after mile,  as I drove i would pray....
" Heavenly Father please forgive me my sin.  But here I go..chasing this cowboy again  .  
And tho I know it is pointless ..
And I know its not smart..
Could some little something... about me touch his heart?
Im not asking for much and I know im a fool ...I just want him to want me.  
To think that I'm cool.
To someday remember,  to look back and see ...
That in this world full of people , he's where I wanted to be.
And try as I might to let go and give in ...
I just can't break the hold that I feel deep within.
And tho I know that he cares nothing for me,  not at all.
It's just business and pleasure and a quick booty call.  
But if I die tomorrow I just hope that he knows.  .. my heart will still follow wherever he goes  ."
In this world full of people it will always be WES...
I will always choose him.. my heart loves him best "