Bad Decisions

Does it hurt to watch her ride off into the sunset
Does it hurt to have him call her, "his Pet"
Does it hurt to lie and say that you're not stressing
Lying here in the dark wondering if you've learned your lesson

When will I stop inflicting myself with this pain
In the middle of the desert, she was pouring rain
Time set aside simply with me in mind
With me also knowing that there was pursuers standing in line

But my troubled mind and heart has many times been broken
With tears shed serving as tokens
I can't blame you baby for being yet another slot
I was nothing but a bandit and I'm glad that I got caught

But whatever it was me tiptoeing around issues playing peek a boo
Scared to admit what I really felt even to you
But you stuck in there, no lies will be told
Offering to go half in with someone that sold his soul

But please tell me Boo did I make the right decision
Trusting our fate on a cosmic collision
I swear that I thought him, the better choice
I sought cosmology and numerology for their force

All sign said that you wanted and needed better
I followed the oracles down to the letter
The old gods gave counsel, that said that he deserves her
Someone to satisfy your wishes and relieve your hurt

Someone capable of expressing what it means to be with her
To start from scratch and build a team with her
But dam I miss you and I pledge that on Pluto and Mars
Since you've left I've fallen from the stars

Is it possible that the gods and oracle were both wrong
That we together pushed you into the wrong arms
I'm twisted baby with this decision, not knowing what we've became
Am I wrong to hang my head in shame, yearning to still be in the game