one foot in; one foot out(the "human experience")

      
       
       
       
    attached yet detached at the same time; wanting "human experience" yet wanting isolation....      
       
       
     realizing the upsides in both, yet realizing the downsides in both; that's why, "I don't belong here"....      
       
       
  entrapped by one's own physical existence; questioning could there have been a "better way" to "consciously" "exist";        
       
       
  or better to have never "existed" in the first place.... entrapped by this "body language" and how one "communicates" in "English" language....      
       
       
  every day that goes by.... "I" contemplate.... every day that goes by.... "I" think.... what use is this body, with it's limitations....when it can just stop, drop, and rot?      
       
       
  why this experience has one "endure" anguish, mundanity....and subjected to a flawed system and become mechanical like a "robot"      
       
       
  "less" is more, because "more" is never enough.... social barriers/engagements from which "I" personally stand/sit appear pretty f*****....      
       
       
the "grand" "scheme" of things going on in "humanity".... "reality".... "fantasy".... *sighs* mental exhaustion of sorts....