Broken mess

Today I read our old text messages
All the way till our breakup
It felt awkward
It felt weird

You were right
I wasn’t confident enough
I wasn’t secure
I wasn’t a woman

I was a girl
A girl who you couldn’t look in her eyes
To say good-bye

I said ok night
And you hit me with the moon emoji
You couldn’t even say night

You said yes to being friends
But i made the mistake
Of thinking that we would be

We tried
Oh how we tried
But i couldn’t let go
Oh how stupid i was,

How stupid i am
Its like i keep picking at an old cut
It heals for awhile
Then i cut it open again

You’re the reason why i can’t commit
You broke my heart so badly that
There’s no point
I’d rather be alone

Than to have to someone
Try to break my heart again.
You’re the reason why I can’t say
I love you.
It hurts me to hear it

You.
I am a broken tea cup