The answer in my dispare

The fog drifts over head
I look up to find nothing
It starts to rain
It starts to pour
I start to cry
I question why?
My mascara runs
I start to shake
All muscles are tense
As my knees seem to collapse
At that point on the ground
As I'm helpless and weak
The answer comes to mind
The answer was always mine
Life is a challenge, it's a contest
Either you got it
Or you don't
Challenge yourself
Don't give up on what you control
Or your nothing more than
What bright you down..
From the start