Last Summer.

 a  re-write of a piece I've had floating around since 2007/2008.
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Last Summer
they just said NO
The sun hung low
no one spoke
ours hearts were broke.

Awake till the dawn
Life went on
Acting like theres nothing wrong.
I fell to pieces while the world stood by
walking your hometown under a bleak shadow
A hole in the world no one could ever fill.
those wounds that wouldn't heal,
those tears I couldn't conceal
who could I look to now?
who could I tell my day to now?

Your coat and hat hung on the wall in the hall
empty
vacant.
storms raged and we just sat blank.
disengaged.
theres so much I never got to say.
a sudden change from joy to misery-isn't that always the way?

Commited you to the flame
knowing things will never be the same.
I had to learn to grow
I had to find the strength somewhere
-god knows where all the time goes-
its funny how things turn out
weird that I can miss your shout,miss embarassment ,miss being wrong...

Last summer
my eyes were filled with sadness
Am I crazy, to expect to see you walk the street?
deluded to think you'll be the one I meet?
why do we only appreciate what's gone?
a new future broke with that early dawn.

..Yet would I really wish for another way? ,
when its the path that lead me here today.