Waiting for “I Would”

I said I’ll wait  
And that I will  
But still each hour that passes  
Each sunset and rise that goes by  
Every moment, day, week, month and year  
I witness  
Nourishes waters and grows my wish  
To know your words  
To hear your voice  
To gaze on fresher views of you  
To breath your air and sense your touch.  
Though some feelings fade with time  
These desperate cravings to have more of you  
Do not.  
Do you understand  
How you torture me with unfulfilled desire?  
I’m addicted to you  
And withdrawal is painful  
Yet unlike detox programs  
with the knowledge suffering will ease with time  
The longer I’m without the sweet drug of you  
The greater is my insobriety  
If I am crazy  
It is for the whole of you  
Would you keep me in this torment?  
Would you leave me in this purgatory?  
Or worse, send me lower to the core of hell  
Where your existence is but a burning memory?  
At times, missing you is tinged with sweetness  
Because hope makes it so  
But in this moment  
I question: is hope in vain?  
Again I ask,  
If we could, would you?  
For me this never was a question,  
But a vehement YES!  
 
 
Did you know there was a time  
I walked the street you may have walked that day?  
Through the teeming throngs on that city sidewalk  
In the transport stations, my eyes kept scanning  
In the hopes I’d see your face  
My room was but 2 city blocks away  
I sometimes wonder, if you had known that I was there…  
But that was in a different life…  
 
I ask now, for the future:  
Would you?