SEARCHING FOREVER SEARCHING  (I)-(original, shorter draft)

i look
at my past
in all these
photographs
but still
cant tell
just who
i am here now
same as i
could not then
here in this
self realized
yet still
self filled being
i am
standing before
me here
reflected
in this mirror
looking back out
at me
with even deeper
questions
than my own
whose answers seem
so wise
and yet still
somewhat unclear
as theyve
ever been
guess perhaps
i may never
truly know
for sure
beyond the way
i presently
feel perceive
and appear
just another
random
mind embodied
spirit
heart and soul
searching
forever searching
for a more
essential
deeper  clearer
higher inner knowing
beyond
this present
more clouded
uncentered state
of inner knowing
i ve reflectively
evoked
once more
yet again
here
now