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Dark and lonely
My eyes sting with unshed tears
I just feel like I need a good cry
Some relief from my emotions
because they're all stirred up inside
A potion of apprehension, sadness, and emptiness
is swirling inside me like a violent storm
and I just want to break free
I feel nothing and everything at once
and it is too much
I can't take it anymore
I feel numb to my very core
And with each breath I take, I think of ending it all
But I just can't
There are too many things I have to do
And so many things that excite me
I just have no one to share them with is all
It's dark and for the first time in forever I am lonely
I don't need or want anybody to hold me
But I ache to be listened to
I yearn to ramble about mundane things
as I share this timid darkness I am in
with anybody who is willing to listen
I just feel like I need a good cry
Some relief from my emotions
because they're all stirred up inside
A potion of apprehension, sadness, and emptiness
is swirling inside me like a violent storm
and I just want to break free
I feel nothing and everything at once
and it is too much
I can't take it anymore
I feel numb to my very core
And with each breath I take, I think of ending it all
But I just can't
There are too many things I have to do
And so many things that excite me
I just have no one to share them with is all
It's dark and for the first time in forever I am lonely
I don't need or want anybody to hold me
But I ache to be listened to
I yearn to ramble about mundane things
as I share this timid darkness I am in
with anybody who is willing to listen
Published 23rd Mar 2022
| Edited 25th Oct 2022
Author's Note
i think i'm just feeling lonely which i'm not used to feeling at all so i don't know how to deal with it
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23rd Mar 2022 1:59am
Well, whatever you do, don't get a damn kitten! I did. And this little SOB destroys every plant, curtain, piece of paper lying around... Loneliness was better!!!
In all seriousness, kinda, don't ever even think about "ending it all". Because if you have friends like me, we have a pact that whoever dies gets their body dressed funny, Sharpie marker cartoons all over, etc. We already practice if someone passes out.
So I never pass out and never plan to die. Because I have awesome asshole friends!
(Mostly Veterans) .
Loneliness is literally a disease unto itself. And yet I imagine the total number of lonely people is the biggest crowd of all. We all have our turns with it. Maybe off and on. Because life is a ferris wheel with few breaks. You're on the down-swing right now. But trust me, it will most definitely swing back up.
Many times it's simply how we approach a new day. There's always something rewarding about it to find, whether big or small. But we don't find it if we're looking down at our feet all day. Yaknow?
Lastly, please please never, ever, think it's not worth it. It's always worth it! You can fix being lonely. It's temporary. Things change all the time, but you have to stick around to find out.
Old story: Two boys were put in to two different rooms, neck-deep full of horseshit.
The first boy just stood in the corner, sulking and crying about his situation.
The second boy, frantically slung shit all over the room, flinging it around like crazy!
Later, when asked why he acted that way, he replied "Well, with all that horseshit lying around, I figured there may be a pony in there somewhere!".
Spill your guts all you want in here. It's good therapy. Loneliness sucks, yes. But it passes. You'll see. Stick around.
In all seriousness, kinda, don't ever even think about "ending it all". Because if you have friends like me, we have a pact that whoever dies gets their body dressed funny, Sharpie marker cartoons all over, etc. We already practice if someone passes out.
So I never pass out and never plan to die. Because I have awesome asshole friends!
(Mostly Veterans) .
Loneliness is literally a disease unto itself. And yet I imagine the total number of lonely people is the biggest crowd of all. We all have our turns with it. Maybe off and on. Because life is a ferris wheel with few breaks. You're on the down-swing right now. But trust me, it will most definitely swing back up.
Many times it's simply how we approach a new day. There's always something rewarding about it to find, whether big or small. But we don't find it if we're looking down at our feet all day. Yaknow?
Lastly, please please never, ever, think it's not worth it. It's always worth it! You can fix being lonely. It's temporary. Things change all the time, but you have to stick around to find out.
Old story: Two boys were put in to two different rooms, neck-deep full of horseshit.
The first boy just stood in the corner, sulking and crying about his situation.
The second boy, frantically slung shit all over the room, flinging it around like crazy!
Later, when asked why he acted that way, he replied "Well, with all that horseshit lying around, I figured there may be a pony in there somewhere!".
Spill your guts all you want in here. It's good therapy. Loneliness sucks, yes. But it passes. You'll see. Stick around.
23rd Mar 2022 6:13pm
Thank you for saying all of this, it means a lot to me :)
And don't worry I'm not ending anything. I just felt like it added a certain heaviness to my spill
Today I'm not even feeling lonely, but yesterday I was. So you know, every day is a new day and all that.
And don't worry I'm not ending anything. I just felt like it added a certain heaviness to my spill
Today I'm not even feeling lonely, but yesterday I was. So you know, every day is a new day and all that.
25th Mar 2022 6:40pm
We all, if we are honest, have those moment of darkness; as we take a quick look back we remember the words of the philosopher, "This too shall pass." Writing a great poem as this one is, is a great way to release. Hugs and peace, (O)=(O)
25th Mar 2022 6:47pm
Yeah, writing is a great outlet for negative emotions! You instantly feel lighter and better after a good write (at least I do :P)
25th Mar 2022 6:53pm
Yes, thoughts are powerful positive or negative. The positive flush out the negative through speaking, thinking, and writing. Hugs and peace, xo=ox
