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the brokenness of she
carve out the piece of me who aches with a fitful distrust of women
I long for the softness of she, just out of arms reach
her scent, her touch lingers in memories stirred but not spoken
the tenderness of woman meant for some, not me the forsaken
my gender is sacred but my heart remains broken
a lady in my secret gardens but something is missing
inside me is a sullen child left hungry for protection, rages
barren of soul, the life debt not paid, I wander
I needed her and was denied haven
a little girl lost
she is my demon
Published 18th Mar 2022
Author's Note
inspired by my life and Styxian's poem Orphans far triggering memories of my own experiences with a schizophrenic mom....
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18th Mar 2022 00:50am
18th Mar 2022 2:52am
thank you dearest Drieks for reading and leaving a thoughtful comment I am well I hope you are too 💕
18th Mar 2022 1:01am
Some ouchies have no healing. But letting it out, pouring it out, helps you to understand "you". Things slowly become clearer. And tho there is no closure, you learn to set it aside and not allow it to determine who you want to be.
You become the victor, and not the victim, by growing up and being a kind soul.
Your writing is your proof of your kind soul. You turned out awesome.
You become the victor, and not the victim, by growing up and being a kind soul.
Your writing is your proof of your kind soul. You turned out awesome.
18th Mar 2022 2:55am
hello dearest Styxian good evening I am for the most part healed then every now and then my anger comes out so I know it's not gone that rage I felt as a child losing her to madness...thank you for being here your poem today made me think a lot of things I repress...as for being a kind soul I do my best... thank you my friend ❤️
18th Mar 2022 2:34am
😢 so incredibly well-expressed. You made something painful into a beautiful read. Hugs to that little girl. 💕
18th Mar 2022 2:56am
thank you graciously beautiful Ruby for such a lovely and thoughtful comment 💕
18th Mar 2022 3:11am
Dear B,
Completely done in by this poem. Touching, truthful, raw, beautiful.
The ache and anger of loss and yet love. Outstanding write. H🌷
Completely done in by this poem. Touching, truthful, raw, beautiful.
The ache and anger of loss and yet love. Outstanding write. H🌷
22nd Mar 2022 8:48pm
18th Mar 2022 5:28am
22nd Mar 2022 8:49pm
22nd Mar 2022 6:54pm
The psychological damage done to that child turns into something sinister later down the road.
Powerful write.
Powerful write.
22nd Mar 2022 8:49pm
