A blade, combed to the side

I'm standing on a ledge, looking down into an abyss of blurred wholeness....and I know why.

For all the love and beauty life shines, cruelty and brutality shines just as bright in my eyes as though I'm guily of a secret.

With a leap, my pain of that fact will end. I will be free from this bitter than sweet taste of life as I feel it.

My suffering. My joy. Seeing it through till I can see no more.

I go to bed...