Cancelled

 
growing upset about cancellations
wtf is the point if it’s just going
to keep getting fkn abandoned
when i need it the most?

couldn’t you have
just rescheduled me
for a different
day this week?

are you doing this on purpose?
to teach me a lesson or
show me that i don’t need it
as often or something?

i imagine being angry during session
telling you off and ending the call
bc your inconsistency is seriously
damaging my fkn trust in you

when i fkn need you the most
makes me wanna quit therapy
altogether, find someone new
but i know it’s not your fault

i’m just taking it personally
when i really shouldn’t
but these feelings are
fkn strong and rn i’m livid

that i’m still not getting
the help i need
nothing is changing
and i still wanna kms

but that's really nothing new, is it?