seek

 
I desire your presence,
where the light meets the dark of me,
inside shadow's grief wherein all secrets truly lie
the breath of me only holds half truths
I shine in the charcoal over life
my smile will be true or not at all

I seek my truths though I lie even to myself
I fear nothing, I'm afraid of too much
dandelion wishes I can't play pretend anymore
my daisy dreams are empty
he love me, he loves me not

you love me I am certain still, I wonder
in my moments of doubt you come to me
and reassure me with your gentleness
I look to you believing in your benevolence, sometimes
not as an innocent babe would
but as a companion

ridicule the soul leave the breath alone
I see the urgency within and without
entertaining notions of sleeping potions
ignoring the rules of knowledge

my days are salt and pepper
a little of this and a little of that
I succeed just to fail a little bit more
shaded glory, will you know your malevolent god,
the one you created when you see him?

disturbing silence with hollow hallelujahs
and brittle prayers
I weep inside for the lies I tell myself
I fear for the infinite knowing only corruption

inside me the darkness swallows the light
when one is tortured aren't we all?