Don't say goodbye

Time to rehash all this pain on this scribe    
These tears can't be understood, so no need for my feelings to be televised  
See I try and I try to heal on my own    
But emotions come with side effects so I'd rather stay in my zone    
To feel alone, is to feel without a backbone    
One minute they hate you, then they love you    
Feels like I'm being stoned    
They want to bag me up and sell me off like some groceries    
Then read about me in the past tense in obituaries    
   
I can't be the only one feeling lonely like this    
But hey life comes with trials and error that are served on an iron fist    
I can't take flight and fly away, like that of a    
Crippled bird with an injured wing    
Never the one to fit in    
Some call me lame, but hey with the uniqueness I possess    
You will know my name even if it doesn't ring the same    
   
Count my blessings and count the many secrets I am harboring    
Looking out this windows of mine, I see pellets of rain making love to the ground    
I imagine myself becoming one with the rain and evaporate    
I also imagine myself becoming one with the light and have this darkness that hinders me finally dissipate    
Here ye here ye old common folks, maybe when I'm gone    
You all will see me and use my once blind existence as a way to hold a shallow commemoration  
A commemoration filled with fake tears and awe I wish I was here