Momma told me not to come

My daddy used to sing that line.
Only later did I find out that it meant he’d been with  
someone other than my mother again.  
 
I think I saw his eyes across the loud room last night  
asking why I was there.  
When a college boy pressed himself against me as we danced,  
I felt what women must have felt in my father.  
 
I was weak and hurt from the love I’d lost.  
The college boy was handsome and  
I let him have his way with me.  
I had my way with him as well and in those moments  
all pains vanished.    
 
When we were done, I saw my father standing at the bedroom  
door with tears in his eyes. It was his face the day he left us.