just a fool

it sucks doesn’t it?
to be under the impression that
someone actually cared for you
i really fell for your lies
god was i foolish
how could i not realize
since the beginning
may of 2020
its almost been 2 years
im so attached
im such a idiot
how could i fall in love with the same guy as you
how could i ever open up about it
i miss you so goddamn much
but i don’t even know why
you laughed at me for crying
but i helped you when you were
I’ve wrote you paragraphs when you felt like killing yourself
but when i felt that way
you couldn’t give a damn
i’ve told people about you
they keep telling me to drop you
but your the one who dropped me
why would you ignore me on my birthday
what a lonely and sad birthday that was
because of you
im scared to even say how i feel
i dont know whether i should be happy or sad
happy that such a toxic person is finally out of my life
or sad that i’ve lost my best friend of 2 years
your telling everyone
all these rumors
posting about it
telling my other friends
im left alone
like a piece of junk that missed that trash can
who started this
everything was fine!
well no not really but
things were fine between me n you
so who ruined our friendship
huh??
your gonna believe everyone but me
why do i miss you
when you don’t care
i guess im just a fool

- to andrea, my now ex bestfriend.