Father

Does this façade please you?
You like pretending we are happy.
You like covering the hurt and pain
Showing only sparkly rainbow smiles.

Fuck you!
Everything is not ok,
It hurts and is dark and cold!
I FUCKING HATE YOU!

I am never good enough for you
My achievements are never enough.
AP courses, all A’s, teachers love me!

You don’t care…
I could be Jesus Fucking Christ
And all I’d get is “but you could do better!”

You want to cover the scars and pain?
The dried blood is red paint is it?
Well you can’t fucking make me up!

I will not be covered by pink hearts
And forced smiles!

Go Die in a hole Father,
I am not your picture perfect daughter.