Just Another ‘love of my life’

We fell together  
Unintentionally  
We found love  
By default  
 
And I know  
I know you love me  
 
And I truly  
I truly love you  
 
But I want someone to choose me  
To look at everything I have  
Everything I am  
And decide to have me  
I’m so tired of being a default  
I’m so sick of falling into things, with no forethought  
With no direction  
 
I think that was the beginning of our end  
The realization that had you known me  
Before  
We wouldn’t be here  
Now  
 
You’re infatuated with the idea of me  
But that girl isn’t real  
She doesn’t exist  
 
And as much as I love you  
I’m not in love with you  
 
And you deserve so much more  
Than me  
So much more  
Than I can offer  
So much more  
Than I can give you  
 
You deserve someone to fall so completely in love with you  
As completely in love with you as you are with idea of me  
 
And she  
Isn’t me