The Death of Memories

The cancerous loss  
of death  
eating away  
destroying  
in agonizing slowness  
the memories  
past  
and future  
leaving only the emptiness of now  
a non existence  
dead  
and lifeless  
choking on the ashes  
of angry words  
and loving plans  
her memories  
are now my memories  
I weigh their worth  
to gift  
or sell  
or to throw away  
parts of her  
that are now part of me  
the cancer spreading  
from her body  
to my life  
the pain is too much  
to cut out each memory  
like cancer  
destroying everything  
until there is nothing left  
but eternal sadness