Can't Change

I only chase the ones who hurt me
And leave me lonely.
Passionate speeches of love
Send me into a panic,
Lashing out and making excuses.
"Forever" sounds like screeching
Nails on a chalkboard,
A needle in my ear,
And I do not know why.
So much for all the psychological
And spiritual learning I've done.
Still don't know the first thing
About how to fit my broken pieces
Together in a way
That will not hurt you so.