I’m trying…

These thoughts and feelings fail to find
fit words for expression:
Love cannot encompass all…
I know he loves me…
I want to love him, too
I’m trying, really TRYING to be satisfied,
to make it be Enough.  
It’s not.  
I want in making love & to really FEEL.  
I want to be in love for real.  
I want to believe in love but all I feel  
is Hollow,
Empty,  
Lonely…
of Passion & Sensation,
tingling Immersion of the Heart,
I have faint faded memories & dreams  
Not real…I’m left to wonder:
Is this emptiness my karma?