My secret wish

Another year comes to an end
Another year full of loneliness
My longing for true love
Grows stronger every year

My secret wish for Christmas is love
I want someone close to me
Someone who knows me
Someone with whom I can share everything
Every thought, every feeling,
No matter how silly, dark or embarrassing
Someone with whom I can be intimate
Someone with whom I can go through difficult times

Somewhere deep inside me
Lies this desperate hope
But I know this won't come true
How can someone love me
When I can't even love myself?
But how can I love myself
When no one shows me how?
And how can I love someone
When I'm constantly struggling?
How can I get close to someone
When I'm shy and withdrawn?
How could I maintain a relationship
When I'm drawn to sadness and loneliness?

Another year comes to an end
Another year full of loneliness
Which won't be my last
My longing for true love
Grows stronger every year
And it willl keep on growing

I wonder how long I will be able to sustain