Distracted

 
I move at a different pace,
Got sidetracked on this race,
Almost had me in second place,
To where I didn’t want to show my face, Because of the pain I could not erase...
So I sat still, and I didn’t make a sound,
If I could make it not real, I would still be around. But in truth I was weak!
I did not have the courage to speak ...
I guess this was my way to compete
With myself as I aim to reach
A different level, perhaps a higher peak,
But then I noticed I’m surrounded by what I reap.

Muddled and confused by these nightmares, That were made of all the things I fear,
And reality no longer was clear,
And I was neither here nor there.
With the limitations I made up,
Deep in my mind until they erupt,
Still trying to figure what made me corrupt,
If I can pin point it maybe it will disrupt Because now I’m filled with the mind to destruct And everyone in my path I distrust,
And now I see I’m really giving no fucks,
And we have all slowly lost touch,
 
Life is the essence, and breath is forever.
Looking for peace, unity and love wherever.
Up and low, what am I looking for?
Would you believe when I say I don’t know?
She giving me the eye, I’m telling her No!
I’ve been out here for a while, now that door is close. I use to be the proof, you see
Now apparently, It’s clear to me,
They fearing me, It’s weird you see... Inherently, when they were daring me
I reached levels they appeared to be. Wondering why trouble is always near to me, Wonder why the sheep are fearing me....
With what we once knew was right..
We traded day in for night...
Probably just did it out of spite,
Because we know we won’t get it right... With that being said I must continue to write.