Swear jar

Penny for every swear word I've uttered
under my breath to the adults
who watched me
Stare out their window
before I wondered
if I existed
if I was given to them
by God
or by a moment of selfish lust
and let it be known
that I never cried
after the day
I told myself
not to.
even machines will rust
when they want to
even electric never strikes too close
when you need it most
but surprisingly enough
it can still shock you
its the good times
that'll kill you
if you don't let it
go