Let forever be

My eyes are red as I hold back the tears
Still paying the price after all these years
There's a lump in my throat that I can't swallow
The past is something in which I can't wallow
Yes the past hurts but it's behind us
Let's not let it define us
My eyes dribbles as I try to talk
I'm attached to the ball and chain and I'm trying to walk
There's words in my mouth that won't come out
I don't expect forgiveness if that's what this is about
Let's step aside and let forever be
I apologise and I'm sorry