The sadness within....

The love in my heart is what makes me stay but its also the thing that pulls and draws me away away from myself and the girl I once knew I'm so different now my dreams are different too just thinkn of me like I did once before I'm selfish again battling myself I am at war I feel like I'm suffocating my breathes are being taken out of me but when I look in the mirror I'm the only person I see killing me slowly taking all my breathes away I feel I might die just about any day writing is my outlet my release from the life I live fucked up thought we only have one life to give I think to myself if I died today are there people that would care what would they remember could they tell if was even here I wish they could remember I am who I am I'm probably the only person that will ever understand.....